unpanda me

When you fall in love under an umbrella in the rain for the first time, Within the infinite possibilities. In the infinite cycles of the Universe Or Multiverse. We may meet again. Perhaps, We already have.

I did self-harm yesterday, and I hit my cheek as an excuse to cry. I lay down with music on my ears and while the pain in my cheek increased I started to notice everything. The birds calling, the wind blows and the rain hitting the ground. It was like everything was trying to comfort me. I kept thinking what if I cut my vein yesterday? What if I die? I thought to myself. I don't want to die. I don't want to never see the nature, my family, my best friends and I don't want to never see him again. But then when the pain in my cheek was nearly unbearable I said, "Glad I survive." Sometimes to know you're alive you have to feel pain, never take anything for granted. Because how rare and beautiful it is to even exist. Life isn't infinite though, I know that but I don't want to know that. Life is a rare gift and it's filled with beauty, something you shouldn't give up. How beautiful life truly is, and how grateful I am to still be here to see ...

"There used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. I'd be hanging out somewhere and everything would just fit right and I would think 'it will be okay if it can just be like this forever' but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever."  — Nina LaCour 

Music help me to have a better understanding of what's going through my mind. I suffers from anxiety and depression amongst other things. But in this post, I am just gonna talk about the guy I gave the privilege to hurt my heart. So there's this guy whom I like so much at a university i am attending. He has no idea just how much I like him and how much he has made a positive impact on my life and my look on life. I was a lazy bum before I saw him, and he became the reason for me to wake up in the morning to attend early classes in the early of the day. We don't know each other. All I know that he always sit in the same spot right in the side of the road I pass almost everyday, and we also have the same major. And that's just the beginning. I saw him for the first time while I was sitting in the corridor in front of the faculty. I walked over to a friend as he passed me. I have never seen anyone so bright in my life. He is tall, he looks so bright that he can brighte...